We All Have Wounds
We all have wounds.
Some of us have lost parents, kids, siblings and friends. Others have lost Meaningful relationships. Some of us have lost Businesses that we've birth. Then some of us have been feeling like we're loosing mentally and physically. Some have been experiencing health issues that have chronically attacked our lives. Many of us often ignore our wounds, but then sit around trying to figure out why they wont heal. Wounds need our attention, even if someone else is to blame for them.
Life experiences affect people in a variety of ways. Some people find it easy to move on after a difficult experience, death, break ups, or our kids fuck ups, while others find that these experiences have a lasting impact on our lives.
I stared my biggest wound in the face on July 29, 2020 when my sister got the phone call saying my mom had transitioned.
Never in a million years did I think I would have to identify my moms body. I remember walking through the halls of the hospital, the sounds of footsteps, and screeching cries as I walked down to my mom's room. The feeling was indescribable. Heartbreak and sadness settled in. Stronger waves of grief pummeled me from all sides until I touched a deeper layer of sadness that can only be described as terrifying. As I entered the room and stood by her side, I felt a gut wrenching pain as if someone was stabbing me repeatedly.
In that moment, I heard my mother’s voice clearly say, "MOVE ON!"
I had two options... break or move on.
Breaking meant succumbing to the bitter suffering I tasted that day and passing more of it on to my family causing and inflicting more pain than we already had to endure or move towards a bigger goal.
I learned how to MOVE ON
I moved on from my darkest thoughts. I move on through my most brutal emotions. As I frantically searched for hope, I turned to other people’s love and support to help me find my way.
During this time of processing and confronting my past I had to understand healing starts on the inside. I had to learn that my outside will reflect the work that I allow God to heal on the inside! Healing is a choice. We can not continue to cover wounds, we must allow the fresh wind of God to oxygenate those places so that we can become new!
Time does not heal all wounds, you doing the work does!
